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[Amy Benson]

I didn't cry. I didn't even want to.
It felt somehow wrong. It was neither what I wanted it to be, nor what I expected it to be, but it still could be fine. And for some reason it wasn't.
I have to write something to make this story as it should be.
It makes me a bad fan, I suppose.

Guys who loved it make me happy, really. I wish I could love it as much as you did. I'll keep reading your reviews and then may be my headcanon will change. I hope so.

Feelings messed up, yeah.

@темы: River Song, Doctor Who

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[::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::]

I think I'm should just shut up and not say anything.. But I'm sorry you're messed up about those episodes.

[Amy Benson]

::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::, I love it when you say something! You are almost always right, though sometimes I don't like it or don't agree with it
I'm dealing with it, anyway. There isn't gonna be another canon, and this one isn't that bad. It just doesn't fit with mine.

[::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::]

Ты мне льстишь.%) But for now, I think those mini-episodes actually *fit* the canon perfectly. I might not like them for a variety of reasons, but I can't help but admire the fact that they *fit* the rest of the story, embrace character continuity and style continuity.

I mean, yes, there just *won't* ever be a definite end to the River story: she can still pop up any time, anywhere, in any of her modes, from 2nd-day-in-prison-Melody-Pond to Prof. River Song right before the Singing Towers. And, yes, I would *love* to have a definite ending; it kinda gives weight to the whole thing, I love stories that actually have an ending, but it's just not the case here. You don't feel that sad that River dies, because this Doctor yet has limitless possibilities on meeting here again, and so would 12 and 13 - nothing to say she couldn't meet them. You might just feel bad for a sec for that older (younger?) Doctor who's taking her to the Towers, but still, with all the wobbliness he can still see her afterwards. The story never ends. Ever. That's part of its charm.

The second part of its charm is that this is what they do. I just have a feeling that this is the most "in character" ending you could get. *This* is what they are, how they are. Would I like something else? Perhaps. Would you? Also, perhaps. But this is the fully in-character version. Anything anybody else would write could be more serious, more emotional / mature / less wobly / more in depth / whatever - but it just would not be them. They are like kids with ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder), running around, shouting, shooting (in River's case), messing up with Time Laws "when parents are asleep", spicing it up with really passionate flirting, with sudden dark notes here and there. This is what they are. This is the spirit of the Doctor Who now. And the stories stay completely in character to that.

And also there was this serious note about the Singing Towers, which kinda robs you of that episode, I guess (I'd be surprised if there were a full episode on them after they are mentioned here), but still strikes a chord in every loyal fan's heart.

So, those stories fit the last pieces of the puzzle beautifully. Yes, they turn the first piece (River in the Library) upside-down and mostly negate it, but it's still done very, very professionally. So, it didn't feel wrong to me. It felt just right. I didn't really feel a slightest bit of compassion, except for the older Doctor who's at the Towers *right now*, but that doesn't matter. I can still admire the fact that it was done very professionally.

p.s. And don't get me started on Time Laws and relative continuity of events, that used to be canon. Apparently we don't have any of that left.

p.p.s. And I really should have shut up...)

[Amy Benson]

::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::,
I'm so glad that it feels right for you. More such people I meet, better I feel. Like someone said, "as if Moffat was my close relative")) And because it means that if something is wrong, than it's wrong with me, not with the episodes.

They are like kids with ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder), running around, shouting, shooting (in River's case), messing up with Time Laws "when parents are asleep", spicing it up with really passionate flirting, with sudden dark notes here and there.

I love the way you state it here, and I suppose you might be absolutely right.
The problem is that my headcanon about the Doctor and River has always been too strong. It hurted every time I head to lose a part of it, and now it feels like the last piece left.
"Last Night" didn't what I saw in the Library. But I'll make it fit one day. I'll smooth all the sharp corners and get a new head canon. I hope so.
And another thing I keep missing is tenderness, but there's never been a hint on it in the canon, so it's just me.

I miss my River more than ever. I'm doing it wrong, I know.

Thank you for writing it all down here. It really helped.

The original post was in English because I couldn't say such things in Russian. Because of reasons. Some reasons

[::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::]

Oooh, so that's how you're hiding your feelings from non-English-speaking folk now?

my headcanon about the Doctor and River has always been too strong. It hurted every time I head to lose a part of it, and now it feels like the last piece left.
"Last Night" didn't (fit?) what I saw in the Library.
Same here. Since seeing the "Silence in the Library" I kept expecting a more grown-up ending at some point, you know, the whole story going to a more serious note with a full episode devoted to the Towers, and seeing that amazing adult responsible Professor River Song. But it just ended with a wonderful blitz and mix of Rivers running wild.
But I'm guessing it also has to do with RTD's era and Moffat's era general differences. You just couldn't get something that would fit the 4th season style in the extras to the 6th season. And what you got does not fit the style of "Silence in the Library", thus creating a slight disconnect.

But just looking at River in seasons5-6, it's a wonderfully complicated time mess with a great gal running wild as long as she can. And she's still adorable at that. So yeah, it felt right.

[Amy Benson]

::~Волдеморт в розово-зелёной кроссовке~::, nooo, these feelings just sound awkward when I try to express them in Russian))

I'm not sure about style differences. There are many of them, of course, but here... Moffat enjoys such timey-wimey flirty wild stuff, yeah. I just hoped that he would make something slightly deeper and more subtle, like he usually does to Amy.
My headcanon has grown to big, that's why it always hurts when it is destroyed. But that's the way it works - Moffat is the showrunner and River Song is his character. He knows better.

amazing adult responsible Professor River Song

May be there's still some more River to come. If not... well, one always has fanfiction